My husband came running into the room and demanded to know our budget for the month. "We're poor, like every other month. What the heck needs fixing this time?" I ask.
Nothing needs fixing (Other than our plumbing, the deck, the windows need t be replaced because they suck, we need a slidding door, a new set of faucettes for the tub, some tiles around my toilet might be nice...) not right away that is. But My husband got an offer that he swears he can not pass up.
Our friend's friend stalled their Lemon A.K.A 1996 Pontiac Grand Am, not really a bad car per say but I call anything that's old either a Lemon or an antique. 1996 is much too new to be antique yet. Okay, Okay I'm going to admit it, I know absolutely NOTHING about cars! I've asked famous questions such as "Which one is the gas peddal?" "How do you turn the car on/off?" and "Where is the engine?" It's not like the car parts under the hood are labled! (actually they are for idiots such as I). When it comes to cars I am pretty much hopeless, but if an appocalypse occurs and cars no longer function anymore I do know how to steer a horse so I'm good!
Anyways the car needs a new Fuel pump to get it started. It's in a parking lot literally a 2 minute walk from my house, the owner is getting a new car and doesn't want to pay to tow the Car so her friend offered it to us for the great value of $200. It has to be moved by Wednesday so we have till then to make our tough decision. (Then proceed to push it up the Hill to our house)
I was worried that I'd end up in the same predicament as my friends and their wonderful Car that likes to piss them off so much. Cars cost money, they break, Gas is expensive and it has to be insured. But Nick won't have his G2 till possibly May so we can't really drive it till then anyways. It's a perfect car to drive to work and back. I was thinking of saving for a decent car but I've come to the conclusion that we've never really been able to save money. Emergencies always happen (Like when new video games come out and we REALLY want them?) So If we buy the car, fix the car, insure the car then when the car breaks it's simply an investment. We put the money towards fixing the car and voila technically it's like saving. It's pretty good for a first vehicle. And if it does break, so what? I'm used to being trapped in my town anyways it's not like anything will really change.
And on the bright side...a car means more blogging opportunities. I need something to complain about, I need to join the Lemon Club so that My friends and I can discuss how much we despise our POS cars! It Might get us to stop complaining about people and celebrities and how much we hate certain literature. I think it's time, time to join the Lemon Club. You heard me Nick, wonderful Husband of mine, I said yes...but you better buy Seat Covers with a dragon pattern on them OR ELSE!
Monday, February 28, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Never a dull moment in my family ^^
We visited the inlaws this weekend up at the farm. I love going over there because it's so much fun and theres never a dull moment. Next weekend I'm going up aswell but I have some work cut out for me as I have to get the canteen ready again and train a bit with the horse I'm supposed to show. But this weekend was a weekend of fun.
Aurora finally got over her swimming fear. She's always been too afraid to go down the steps in the pool and she's terrified of going in the pool with people. She had a bad experience falling in a lake last summer and has been afraid of deep water ever since. But she saw Marissa (Who is the year old daughter of the the boarders and who is also my 18 year old Sister in Law's Neice) having fun swimming with an inner tube so out of nowhere Auroa asks if I can help her go in the tube so I just plopped her in and voila now my daughter is swimming about and now I can't get her out of the pool because she's having too much fun.
Later that night we watched "The Last Airbender." My 13 year old sister and the Boarder's 14 year old daughter were watching the movie with us. They rather enjoyed the movie. I must admit I actually like the movie despite the fact some things were changed from the original series. M. Night Shyamalan took an entire season of an animated series and made it into a movie. The acting isn't that bad even though they should have gotte a better actor for Prince Zuko. Before I ramble on about Avatar The Last Airbender I'll just say that after the movie Nick explained to the girls the entire series. The series is awesome, funny and entertaining so they were asking questions and he was providing answers. We were up until 2am discussing Avatar. This is when I came across the You Tube Video of the CSI episode where Justin Bieber gets shot by Nick Stokes. So Nick tells me to lower the volume on my lap top and I yell out "No! I'm watching Bieber get shot!" Thats when Missy and Chey come running over like two excited teens...but not because they are Beliebers, because they reall want to see Bieber get shot. They cheered, laughed and then explained about how much they can't stand him. Thank goodness, I have awesome sisters.
At Dawn my little Munchkin snuck downstairs and managed to sneak past my Husband and I. Normally we hear her, but this time she was silent. She silently raided the fridge and stole cake. Then she silently raided the fish tank and took the Guppy out. Aurora denied taking cake but had chocolate Icing all over her face. We then discovered that the Guppy was missing and the net was still in the tank. Aurora admitted to taking the guppy but we never found it. None the less she got in big trouble because she has been told numerous times Not to touch things without asking. She's at a wonderful age in life, 4 years old where she thinks she can get away with everything. I've been watching her like a hawk lately.
Everyone went swimming...except the adults. There is an indoor pool in the house. So the kids went into the pool and this is when Trevor (Dad) decided it would be fun to tos me into the pool with all my clothes on. So he gets Nick, they get a hold of me but Aurora comes to the rescue. This didn't stop them from throwing Mom into the pool though. As soon as Mom got tossed in I knew I was next so I just simply jumpped in on my own. I would have been thrown in anyway so why not ruin their fun? This is the kind of crap that occurs when we visit family.
There is never a dull moment. My side of the family can be pretty dull, we go visit, we sit around...that sums it up. We go visit Nick's family and craziness breaks loose. There was obviously a reason I was the perfect Wife for Nick, it's because I have to be insane to be a part of this family. And I couldn't be more pleased. I love my family! <3
Saturday, February 19, 2011
More Solar Ramblings...
SQUEEEEE! So I logged on to Yahoo and an article so totally just backed up what I have been blabbering about the last few days. Incase you haven't noticed I might be somewhat obsessed with Solar Storms and the potential for disaster. I find this subject cool due to the fact that my Natural Disaster's class did not mention Solar Storms. Yes in highschool there was a grade 11 class dedicated to Natural Disasters, most of the time we watched videos, in some instances we watched the same video 2-3 times because our teacher was too lazy to teach the class...this resulted in mini natural disatsters happening in class as Mr. Stubbs took a nap in the Geography office.
Anyways Instead of blabbing on and on I'm just going to copy and paste the article which I found on yahoo news today. However if you don't want to read the entire article I included the cliffs notes at the bottom of the page.
The sun let loose its most powerful eruption in more than four years Monday night (Feb. 14), disrupting radio communications in China and generating concern around the world. But it could have been a lot worse, experts say.
Despite its strength, Monday's solar storm was a baby compared to several previous blasts, and it provides just a hint of what the sun is capable of. A true monster storm has the potential to wreak havoc on a global scale, knocking out communications systems, endangering satellites and astronauts and causing perhaps trillions of dollars in damages.
The sun's activity cycle is ramping up, so more storms will likely be coming our way over the next few years. The sun has grown more active over the last several months after rousing from a quiet period in its 11-year weather cycle last year.
That's not to say the big one is imminent, experts say — but you never can tell. And analysts warn that with humanity more dependent than ever on the high-tech equipment that can be affected by a solar storm, the stakes are higher than in the past.
"Even if this is a really lackluster solar cycle — as it looks like it's shaping up to be — that doesn't mean you can't have a real bell-ringing event," said Joe Gurman of NASA's Goddard Space Flight Center, project scientist for the agency's sun-studying STEREO spacecraft.
The roots of solar storms
Solar storm events come in several different flavors.
Solar flares are intense bursts of radiation that send waves of photons streaming toward Earth. The scale measuring their strength has three general categories – Class C, Class M and Class X – with Class X flares being the most powerful.
Monday's Valentine's Day solar flare registered a Class X2.2 on that scale.
Other storms, known as coronal mass ejections (CMEs), are large clouds of plasma and magnetic field that erupt from the sun's surface, sending lots of particles our way.
Both flares and CMEs have the same root cause — a disruption of the magnetic field in the sun's outer atmosphere. And both events can affect life here on Earth. Major flares, for example, can interfere with satellites, causing disruptions in GPS and high-frequency radio communications that can last from a few minutes to a few hours.
These impacts are felt almost immediately, since it only takes light about 8 minutes to travel from the sun to Earth.
"It's like the sun is a giant noise source," said Bob Rutledge, head of the forecast office at the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration's Space Weather Prediction Center. "It can disrupt anything that depends on a link between the ground and satellites."
But the most severe damage comes from powerful CMEs. The particles from these outbursts take longer to reach us — up to three days or so. But when they get here, their interaction with Earth's magnetic field can cause massive "geomagnetic storms," which have the potential to wreak long-lasting havoc on power and communications infrastructure around the globe.
"They can cause a lot of trouble," Rutledge told SPACE.com.
Last year, NASA launched its so-called Solar Shield project to serve as an early-warning system for serious space weather events.
Powerful impacts possible
Monday night's storm produced both a big solar flare and a CME. Wdespread satellite or communications disruption, however, is likely not in the cards.
"We don't expect this to cause any kind of lasting damage to our infrastructure," Rutledge said.
But Earth has been walloped by monster solar storms before. One of the most powerful hit us in 1859, a blast that Rutledge estimates may have been 30 times more powerful than Monday's event, though it's tough to put hard numbers on such comparisons.
The 1859 storm shorted out telegraph wires, causing fires in North America and Europe, and spawned spectacular auroras — the light shows visible near Earth's poles — bright enough to read by, according to some accounts.
If the 1859 storm occured these days, it would likely have devastating impacts, since our electrical and communications infrastructures are so much more developed. A recent report by the U.S National Academy of Sciences found that such a severe storm could cause up to $2 trillion in initial damages by crippling communications on Earth and fueling chaos around the world.
It might take up to 10 years for authorities to re-assert control and get everyting fixed, the report concluded. For comparison, Hurricane Katrina likely inflicted somewhere between $80 billion and $125 billion in damage.
What does the future hold?
The sun works on an 11-year activity cycle, and it's currently gaining strength. Forecasters now expect peak activity might occur in 2013 or 2014, Rutledge said, though nobody knows for sure.
So more flares and CMEs should be headed our way over the next several years. So far, the sun has been relatively quiescent during this cycle, so perhaps peak activity won't compare to the maxima of previous cycles, researchers said.
But a big, Earth-shaking blast could come screaming at us all the same, and researchers are monitoring the sun closely.
"This has been a remarkably quiet solar cycle," Gurman told SPACE.com. "But that doesn't mean there won't be a big event."
-The Sun has JUST begun it's solar maximum cycle
-A large storm pointed directly at Earth can cause havoc and TRILLIONS of dollars in damage.
-Store Up Twinkies...and extra water...and lots of soda pop...and canned beans are good too
-If the 1859 type storm occured (An Aurora Borealis seen around the globe) today it would cause alot of havoc...because we rely on technology. Big storms have hit earth in the past therefore they will hit again.
-if a big storm hit it could take up to 10 years to fix everything and regain control...in other words think widespread panic, hoarding, looting, mass murders, people going insane, chaos, a zombie appocalypse without zombies...
-The scientists say they don't expect massive damage...don't belive them, they are clearly lying and trying to keep us all calm. Do not remain calm. Go out and stock up on survival gear and lots of food. This will boost the economy, if the storm doesn't actually happen then hey at least the Economy got a bit better.
Anyways Instead of blabbing on and on I'm just going to copy and paste the article which I found on yahoo news today. However if you don't want to read the entire article I included the cliffs notes at the bottom of the page.
The sun let loose its most powerful eruption in more than four years Monday night (Feb. 14), disrupting radio communications in China and generating concern around the world. But it could have been a lot worse, experts say.
Despite its strength, Monday's solar storm was a baby compared to several previous blasts, and it provides just a hint of what the sun is capable of. A true monster storm has the potential to wreak havoc on a global scale, knocking out communications systems, endangering satellites and astronauts and causing perhaps trillions of dollars in damages.
The sun's activity cycle is ramping up, so more storms will likely be coming our way over the next few years. The sun has grown more active over the last several months after rousing from a quiet period in its 11-year weather cycle last year.
That's not to say the big one is imminent, experts say — but you never can tell. And analysts warn that with humanity more dependent than ever on the high-tech equipment that can be affected by a solar storm, the stakes are higher than in the past.
"Even if this is a really lackluster solar cycle — as it looks like it's shaping up to be — that doesn't mean you can't have a real bell-ringing event," said Joe Gurman of NASA's Goddard Space Flight Center, project scientist for the agency's sun-studying STEREO spacecraft.
The roots of solar storms
Solar storm events come in several different flavors.
Solar flares are intense bursts of radiation that send waves of photons streaming toward Earth. The scale measuring their strength has three general categories – Class C, Class M and Class X – with Class X flares being the most powerful.
Monday's Valentine's Day solar flare registered a Class X2.2 on that scale.
Other storms, known as coronal mass ejections (CMEs), are large clouds of plasma and magnetic field that erupt from the sun's surface, sending lots of particles our way.
Both flares and CMEs have the same root cause — a disruption of the magnetic field in the sun's outer atmosphere. And both events can affect life here on Earth. Major flares, for example, can interfere with satellites, causing disruptions in GPS and high-frequency radio communications that can last from a few minutes to a few hours.
These impacts are felt almost immediately, since it only takes light about 8 minutes to travel from the sun to Earth.
"It's like the sun is a giant noise source," said Bob Rutledge, head of the forecast office at the National Oceanic and Atmospheric Administration's Space Weather Prediction Center. "It can disrupt anything that depends on a link between the ground and satellites."
But the most severe damage comes from powerful CMEs. The particles from these outbursts take longer to reach us — up to three days or so. But when they get here, their interaction with Earth's magnetic field can cause massive "geomagnetic storms," which have the potential to wreak long-lasting havoc on power and communications infrastructure around the globe.
"They can cause a lot of trouble," Rutledge told SPACE.com.
Last year, NASA launched its so-called Solar Shield project to serve as an early-warning system for serious space weather events.
Powerful impacts possible
Monday night's storm produced both a big solar flare and a CME. Wdespread satellite or communications disruption, however, is likely not in the cards.
"We don't expect this to cause any kind of lasting damage to our infrastructure," Rutledge said.
But Earth has been walloped by monster solar storms before. One of the most powerful hit us in 1859, a blast that Rutledge estimates may have been 30 times more powerful than Monday's event, though it's tough to put hard numbers on such comparisons.
The 1859 storm shorted out telegraph wires, causing fires in North America and Europe, and spawned spectacular auroras — the light shows visible near Earth's poles — bright enough to read by, according to some accounts.
If the 1859 storm occured these days, it would likely have devastating impacts, since our electrical and communications infrastructures are so much more developed. A recent report by the U.S National Academy of Sciences found that such a severe storm could cause up to $2 trillion in initial damages by crippling communications on Earth and fueling chaos around the world.
It might take up to 10 years for authorities to re-assert control and get everyting fixed, the report concluded. For comparison, Hurricane Katrina likely inflicted somewhere between $80 billion and $125 billion in damage.
What does the future hold?
The sun works on an 11-year activity cycle, and it's currently gaining strength. Forecasters now expect peak activity might occur in 2013 or 2014, Rutledge said, though nobody knows for sure.
So more flares and CMEs should be headed our way over the next several years. So far, the sun has been relatively quiescent during this cycle, so perhaps peak activity won't compare to the maxima of previous cycles, researchers said.
But a big, Earth-shaking blast could come screaming at us all the same, and researchers are monitoring the sun closely.
"This has been a remarkably quiet solar cycle," Gurman told SPACE.com. "But that doesn't mean there won't be a big event."
-The Sun has JUST begun it's solar maximum cycle
-A large storm pointed directly at Earth can cause havoc and TRILLIONS of dollars in damage.
-Store Up Twinkies...and extra water...and lots of soda pop...and canned beans are good too
-If the 1859 type storm occured (An Aurora Borealis seen around the globe) today it would cause alot of havoc...because we rely on technology. Big storms have hit earth in the past therefore they will hit again.
-if a big storm hit it could take up to 10 years to fix everything and regain control...in other words think widespread panic, hoarding, looting, mass murders, people going insane, chaos, a zombie appocalypse without zombies...
-The scientists say they don't expect massive damage...don't belive them, they are clearly lying and trying to keep us all calm. Do not remain calm. Go out and stock up on survival gear and lots of food. This will boost the economy, if the storm doesn't actually happen then hey at least the Economy got a bit better.
Friday, February 18, 2011
My new Job adventure.
I am now an employee for a Company called Beacon Live. This is an online/on the phone conference call center. Today people no longer have to travel to go to company meetings and conferences, people can access conferences in the comfort of their own home. I am an operator. I trouble shoot, take information, direct people to the right conference room etc. It's pretty simple. So I get to have a few 2-3 hour shifts each week and sit in my office.
I have not started my job yet. I begin training next week. But I am beyond excited. My office is cleaned and organized, infact I can get my stupid taxes done now and not have to look at them till next year. I can work in my PJ's, I don't have to worry about my hair or makeup, I don't have to stress over what to wear, I can put my feet up, heck I can lie down on the bed in my office and work! It's SWEET! These are the perks of home offices. Also no office drama. However if I want Drama all I need to do is Log on to twitter and voila instant drama and fun.If I need a double dose of Drama I just have to log in to Facebook.
I was also beyond excited to personalize my office...It's not done yet...I need more geeky pics. But here are some photos of it so far...
I'm certain I will have many office adventures...and boredoms. If I get bored chances are the D&D minis and the camera will come out and I'll take some lame (Possibly funny) photos. So I guess we will have to see. May the Schwartz be with me!
Explaining Scientific Sun stuff...
Geomagnetic Storms:
I unfortunately did not see an Aurora Borealis display as the Geomagnetic storm was smaller than they anticipated. But I did get to learn a whole bunch of cool things about the sun last night. My Husband and I looked at video, pictures and we watched the Star Gate Universe episode where the Ship goes into the sun and powers the ship up. Anyways beyond my geeky life I've decded to try and explain Geomagnetic storms to non scientific people.
A Geomagnetic storm is a disturbance in the Earth's Geomagnetic atmosphere caused by CME's (Coronal Mass Ejections). For those who still don't understand what a CME is it's a solar flare that gets shot at Earth, it arrives within 3 days and hits the Earth's atmosphere which usually results in a display of Northern/Southern Lights.
Geomagnetic storms Disrupt Shortwave radios and Amateur Radio signals. It Can also disrupt GPS, the signals that airplanes use to distinguish their location and Land to Sea communications. Solar flares can also damage Satelites, and cause blackouts in the power grid (Mainly in long distance grids that are vulnerable). A large enough (and this is VERY rare) CME can potentially damage most satelites in orbit and cause wide spread black outs. This is very unlikely as there has to be a REALLY BIG CME that shoots out of the sun Directly at us. Scientists are studying CMEs incase the Sun does decide to shoot out a really big flare. We would have 3 days warning. A large CME hit the Earth in 1989 causing power outages and an Aurora Borealis that was seen as far south as Texas.
M Class-Medium sized, can cause radio disturbances.
X Class- Large sized, can cause global wide radio disturbance, black outs and long lasting Geomagnetic storms.
The Classes are also given subdivisions ranging from 1-9. The above graph shows that an X2, M5 and a X6 hit the Earth on July 4th 2000. Can you say Independance day Fireworks? That was the last Solar Maximum (When the sun releases Big Flares) and we are comming into another solar Maximum. If we get mose X Class solar Flares chances of seeing an Aurora Borealis are more likely. Last Night (Feb 17 2011) Yellowknife Canada saw a beautiful display of Northern Lights.
So if you were ever wondering what causes the Northern Lights, now you know. CMEs do. It's all thanks to solar flares. And yes the Northern Lights are visible from Outer space. Infact they look even cooler in outer space.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
When the Sun has a temper tantrum.
Geomagnetic Storm
A powerful solar eruption that triggered a huge geomagnetic storm has disturbed radio communications and could disrupt electrical power grids, radio and satellite communication in the next days, NASA said. A strong wave of charged plasma particles emanating from the Jupiter-sized sun spot, the most powerful seen in four years, has already disrupted radio communication in southern China. (yahoo News)
They estimate this storm will disrupt GPS, Radio waves, and satelites are vulnerable to these storms. Southern China already experienced disruptions yesterday with Radio signals. This isn't as bad as an entire power grid being blown but planes can lose contact with airports, ships can lose contact with shore, and old men everywhere who are HAM radio hobbiests will be royally pissed off.
"Three CMEs are enroute, all a part of the Radio Blackout events on February 13, 14, and 15 (UTC). The last of the three seems to be the fastest and may catch both of the forerunners about mid to late ... February 17."
The China Meteorological Administration reported that the solar flare caused "sudden ionospheric disturbances" in the atmosphere above China and jammed short-wave radio communications in the southern part of the country.
The CMA warned there was a high probability that large solar flares would appear over the next three days, the official Xinhua news agency reported.
The British Geological Survey (BGS) said meanwhile that the solar storm would result in spectacular Northern Lights displays starting Thursday. (Yahoo News)
For the most part I really hope I get to witness a display of Northern Lights. I'm looking forward to following the sun's weather over the next year. This is just the start. The Sun hasn't even unleashed it's full potential yet. We might get to see many cool Northern Light spectacles over the next few months. So Stay tuned, the sun will be interesting for a while.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Running Amok in Norwood.
I hear my city friends complain about Boredom all the time. They then assume that if they are bored in the city I must be bored in the country. I live in a town with a population of 4000ish (Although the sign says 1300 which is lies, there's at least 4000). It is a half hour drive to get to a major city. But We're surrounded by other small towns. I must admit that I don't get bored all that often living here. I was more bored living in the city.
Today I helped my friend set up crafts for tonight's Church Kid's group. Kids will be making snowmen and snow globes for the winter theme. There's usually 40-50 kids in attendance. That's roughly half the kids in town. The kids can either stay in and make crafts or go outside and play hockey. So Tonight should be fun packed. I get to man the craft station and make sure My kid stays out of trouble.
I then proceeded over to the local Coffee/music shop. There are all sorts of cool treasures in there, the best being vanilla Cinnamon Lattes. The fact I can get a latte in a small town is pretty awesome. They are doing very good in this town because it is a really cool place to chill out. I explained Dungeons and Dragons to my friends and then explained a Zombie appocalypse RPG. I am trying to recruit some newbies to play D&D. So far I have two of my local friends. I'm New at DMing so having an inexperienced group is ideal. I have brought 2 people to the dark side of geekdom! Possible 3!
I then went to look after a friend's kids for about an hour. They are home schooled but their older siblings attend highschool so I look after them until their siblings return home. We looked at a Where's Waldo book...I haven't seen one of those for ages. It was a really tough one too so it was lots of fun. Where's Waldo Rocks. We then went to the school to get my munchkin. My daughter has another bag of valentine treats. I assume she will get nice and hyper for tonight's craft night. I'm in for it.
My daughter and I went to the grocery store. I got my stuff, went around the corner and there was this guy sharply dressed. Like Rock Star Style. Who dresses like a Rock Star in Norwood while at the local Foodland? Well A rock Star of course! Turns out The band members of Three Days Grace are home till March. Brad Walst the Bass player in the band was at foodland with his son (Who is in the same grade as my kid but in the other class). His son was happily riding on the edge of the cart. I said Hi, then walked on. I don't really get all giddy when I see celebrities. I'm so used to seeing these guys in my town that it's become normal to treat them like regular town folk. Brad is quite down to earth, I have never seen him snub anyone and when he's walking about people have regular Norwood Conversation with him. Well...except for my friend Sam who totally got caught off guard when he walked in to the Cafe in December. Way to Go Sam!
So That was today's adventure. And I live in a Hick Town. There is always something to do. If I'm bored I simply go for a walk and talk to about 10-20 people. This is the best thing about small towns, people are friendly, everyone knows you and all the best gossip can be overheard at Foodland.
Today I helped my friend set up crafts for tonight's Church Kid's group. Kids will be making snowmen and snow globes for the winter theme. There's usually 40-50 kids in attendance. That's roughly half the kids in town. The kids can either stay in and make crafts or go outside and play hockey. So Tonight should be fun packed. I get to man the craft station and make sure My kid stays out of trouble.
I then proceeded over to the local Coffee/music shop. There are all sorts of cool treasures in there, the best being vanilla Cinnamon Lattes. The fact I can get a latte in a small town is pretty awesome. They are doing very good in this town because it is a really cool place to chill out. I explained Dungeons and Dragons to my friends and then explained a Zombie appocalypse RPG. I am trying to recruit some newbies to play D&D. So far I have two of my local friends. I'm New at DMing so having an inexperienced group is ideal. I have brought 2 people to the dark side of geekdom! Possible 3!
I then went to look after a friend's kids for about an hour. They are home schooled but their older siblings attend highschool so I look after them until their siblings return home. We looked at a Where's Waldo book...I haven't seen one of those for ages. It was a really tough one too so it was lots of fun. Where's Waldo Rocks. We then went to the school to get my munchkin. My daughter has another bag of valentine treats. I assume she will get nice and hyper for tonight's craft night. I'm in for it.
My daughter and I went to the grocery store. I got my stuff, went around the corner and there was this guy sharply dressed. Like Rock Star Style. Who dresses like a Rock Star in Norwood while at the local Foodland? Well A rock Star of course! Turns out The band members of Three Days Grace are home till March. Brad Walst the Bass player in the band was at foodland with his son (Who is in the same grade as my kid but in the other class). His son was happily riding on the edge of the cart. I said Hi, then walked on. I don't really get all giddy when I see celebrities. I'm so used to seeing these guys in my town that it's become normal to treat them like regular town folk. Brad is quite down to earth, I have never seen him snub anyone and when he's walking about people have regular Norwood Conversation with him. Well...except for my friend Sam who totally got caught off guard when he walked in to the Cafe in December. Way to Go Sam!
So That was today's adventure. And I live in a Hick Town. There is always something to do. If I'm bored I simply go for a walk and talk to about 10-20 people. This is the best thing about small towns, people are friendly, everyone knows you and all the best gossip can be overheard at Foodland.
Explaining the Teen Girl mind.
Bieber fever. Why is it so crazy? Why do teen girls talk non stop about this Justin Bieber kid? He's talented but he's not all that great. To me he's just a singer who got popular because of being discovered on You Tube and for some odd reason there was a huge snowball effect that caused many teen girls to become obsessed over him.
Twilight. It's just another book and honestly it isn't all that great. It's entertaining but the concept is kind of lame. Yet many teen girls are obsessed with Vampires now. I watched the first movie and couldn't stop laughing over how cruddy the acting was. I had to stop watching the second movie because it was much too sappy for my liking. But teen girls are in love with Edward or Jacob, absolutely adore the actors who portray these fictional characters and talk non stop about how epic Twilight is. Bieber, Twilight...why do these things occupy teenage minds?
It's simple. I was a teen girl once. There was this guy, he wasn't all that great really but in my world he was PERFECT. My teenage mind led me to believe that he was my soul mate. So Day and night I thought about him. I talked about him at dinner, I talked about him to my friends, the only person I didn't talk to was Him. I was in grade 9 and 24/7 my mind was thinking about my crush. He was slightly a celebrity back then but if I mentioned his name today not too many people would know him. As for the Lemming effect (Following what your peers do) I did the same thing too which is how I aquired my crush in the first place. There was this Hockey team at our school and my friends and I attended the games. My friends aquired crushes on the players so I too had to find some guy to crush on.
When I was in grade 10 I was heart broken to find out he was not single. So my messed up teen mind thought that if I got a boyfriend I'd make him jealous...He didn't even know me!!! Oh But I swore he did. If he even looked at me, in my mind he knew me. Perhaps he did, but chances are it was because I was bouncing off the walls and you could hear my voice from one end of the arena to the other. When I saw him with a girl I went home and tore up his pictures (Yes I had pictures that I purchased which proves I was just as bad as Beliebers) kind of like what alot of girls would do today if Justin Bieber came out with a Girl friend. It's just the teen girl mind.
It's quite simple really. Teen girls focus on one or two things and they never lose the focus. So Teen girls can fantisize about dating Justin Bieber all bloody day. They hear the name Justin and their heart skips a beat. They see some guy with the same hair cut they freak. Someone disses him they get offended. They swear that they'll always love him but then they become adults and their minds just can't function the same way.
Adults don't think of the same thing all day. We get obsessed with MANY things so we have a large varaiety. For example I will get all giddy for 5 minutes at the mention of something geeky then something else will catch my attention so I'll get all giddy about that, then I'll move on to something else then I just won't think about anything... Adult minds are alot more different than teen minds.
So in the next few years, and I can guarantee it no matter how many Beliebers or Twihards argue with me, teens will think less and less about Twilight and Bieber. They will end up simply admiring him, there will be no more giddy screams, the posters will eventually come down, and when the next generation of teens hit the scene I guess we will all find out who the next teen heart Throb is. Then we can start the cycle all over again and wonder how the hell teen girls can be so obsessed. Well now you know the answer...they are just simply built that way.
Monday, February 14, 2011
I have a Bone to pick with Valentine's day.
Maybe I'm just different, maybe I just see things differently...there was a time I was like the average person on Valentine's day. In grade 9 I got a big fat nothing. In grade 10 I got a tiny box of chocolate and a stuffie from my boyfriend. In grade 11 I finally had a boyfriend who gave me a big bag of candy. After that we hit up Shoppers Drug Mart every year and I Picked out stuff. In 2007 I got mad because my Husband didn't get me anything at all, he went out and bought me a whole bag of stuffed toys the next day when everything was on sale. Most girls would dump their boyfriend's if they pulled a move like that but when he came in and threw 5 adorable valentines at me I was sooo happy. Then it dawned on me. "I can save money if we celebrate Valentine's day AFTER the 14th!"
Today is Valentine's day. Should I be getting flowers? Should my husband woo me with chocolate? Should I get a fancy card? I remember one year I got my husband the most EPIC card ever. It had a picture of a dead rat on the front and it said "Who in their right mind would get their loved one a valentine's day card with a dead Rat on it?" inside it said "Aww you know me too well. Happy Valentine's day." This Year I handed him a home made card.
Anyways, Nick got a nice home made card (Picture above) and he got a new Propane torch as well so since we had to go out and buy something that makes pretty fire he is content with his Valentine gift. Infact even I got a kick out of it, as we were using it on copper pipes it made funky colours that looked like the Northern Lights. Turns out we didn't even need the torch because our pipe has an actual hole in it so I had to go out today and buy pipe tape and a clamp. While I was out shopping I decided to buy a box of hair dye because I am so sick of looking at my 3 inch long dark roots due to the fact I haven't dyed my hair in months now. Now I'm happy, Nick's happy about his new torch and my daughter is happy that she got to load up on sugar all day at school. All is well.
Honestly Valentine's day is just another day. It's a stupid marketing ploy. People should simply use the day to spread kindness and love instead of expecting expensive gifts from their significant others. Some girls get expensive jewelry! If My Husband ever spent more than $10 on a peice of jewelry I'd smack him. Infact I have a $40 engagement ring and $100 wedding band on my finger. I don't need a $1000 ring I'm likely going to lose anyways. I'd rather have a $1000 TV I'll ENJOY over a $1000 sparkly thing on my finger. Some girls get flowers, again I hate it when my husband buys me flowers unless he gets them for free like that time he picked a bunch of wild flowers on his way to my work and he handed me those, they meant alot more to me than a stupid store bought bouquette. The Best Valentines gift I can ever have is waking up beside the man I love, getting up, farting in his face and running like hell. DAMN RIGHT I GOT MY VENGEANCE!
So, that's my bone with Valentines day. It sucks. But the day after Valentines day does not. Because I can go out and buy all the marked down candy, chocolate and adorable stuffed animals. The stuffed animals are then given to my beautiful 4 year old daughter, we share the candy and chocolate, get hyper and have a blast annoying everyone. I've even used Valentine's chocolates in Easter Egg hunts, my kid is 4, she doesn't know the difference yet and a chocolate heart is as good as an egg. But so many people don't know this, this is valuable and money saving information. Ladies and Gents, Stop indulging in marketing ploys and celebrate Love Day After the 14th. That is all.
Today is Valentine's day. Should I be getting flowers? Should my husband woo me with chocolate? Should I get a fancy card? I remember one year I got my husband the most EPIC card ever. It had a picture of a dead rat on the front and it said "Who in their right mind would get their loved one a valentine's day card with a dead Rat on it?" inside it said "Aww you know me too well. Happy Valentine's day." This Year I handed him a home made card.
Honestly Valentine's day is just another day. It's a stupid marketing ploy. People should simply use the day to spread kindness and love instead of expecting expensive gifts from their significant others. Some girls get expensive jewelry! If My Husband ever spent more than $10 on a peice of jewelry I'd smack him. Infact I have a $40 engagement ring and $100 wedding band on my finger. I don't need a $1000 ring I'm likely going to lose anyways. I'd rather have a $1000 TV I'll ENJOY over a $1000 sparkly thing on my finger. Some girls get flowers, again I hate it when my husband buys me flowers unless he gets them for free like that time he picked a bunch of wild flowers on his way to my work and he handed me those, they meant alot more to me than a stupid store bought bouquette. The Best Valentines gift I can ever have is waking up beside the man I love, getting up, farting in his face and running like hell. DAMN RIGHT I GOT MY VENGEANCE!
So, that's my bone with Valentines day. It sucks. But the day after Valentines day does not. Because I can go out and buy all the marked down candy, chocolate and adorable stuffed animals. The stuffed animals are then given to my beautiful 4 year old daughter, we share the candy and chocolate, get hyper and have a blast annoying everyone. I've even used Valentine's chocolates in Easter Egg hunts, my kid is 4, she doesn't know the difference yet and a chocolate heart is as good as an egg. But so many people don't know this, this is valuable and money saving information. Ladies and Gents, Stop indulging in marketing ploys and celebrate Love Day After the 14th. That is all.
Saturday, February 12, 2011
One of my joys of marriage ^^ The aftershave incident
My Husband and I were both in the bathroom one evening, I was running myself a bath and he was shaving. He proceeded to put aftershave on his face and did a whole Home Alone facial expression to which I laughed at. So he explains that Aftershave not only finds the cuts it disinfects the cuts and it's a manly ritual. I proceeded to focus on something else when he got a bright idea. He grabbed the razor and started to scrape my leg. He put aftershave on it but since he didn't cut me I felt nothing. So the jerk shaved my other leg even harder, drawing some blood (ABUSE LOL), worst part is I let him. I looked at him and said "Don't you dare put aftershave on my leg!" He acted all concerned that my leg was bleeding a bit so he started to rub my leg...the jerk had aftershave on his hands and my leg immediately started to sting. I screamed and cursed while he laughed. Then he went and told our room mate what he had just done to me!
This is part of a good healthy marriage...I really need to seek some revenge as he has gotten placed ice down my shirt 3 times since the After Shave incident. I figure I may as well pull pranks on him since he's just going to bug me anyways. I'm too much fun to annoy. I'm sure I'll come up with something good, but until then I just cautiuosly watch my back ><
This is part of a good healthy marriage...I really need to seek some revenge as he has gotten placed ice down my shirt 3 times since the After Shave incident. I figure I may as well pull pranks on him since he's just going to bug me anyways. I'm too much fun to annoy. I'm sure I'll come up with something good, but until then I just cautiuosly watch my back ><
Jess' Top 10 Troll encounters.
I am not going to discuss my top 10 Dungeons and Dragons Troll encounters. I am going to discuss my top 10 real life (Not online) Troll encounters. Trolls are people who make your life miserable or they just plain out annoy you. Sometimes a troll tries to make you miserable but does such a horrible job you can't help but laugh at their trolling attempt. I've encountered people who have annoyed me, made my life hell and have failed so bad I still laugh to this day. I will use Nicknames for some people.
1. The Grinch: His real name is Nathan Horton, he is in the NHL and I have been trolled by him. How? Well lets just say he went to my highschool and I totally had it coming (Because I started it by constantly calling him Grinch). But It was really funny and lame. I mean, honestly someone could have been more creative than calling me "Ugly Whore." Plus he was way off. Sure I'm hideous, but at the same time so is he (Thus the Grinch nickname) but how on earth could be assume I was a whore? I was sooo confused. I was still a Virgin in 10th grade so how the hell could I be a Whore? Don't Whore's have to have sex for money? So I must say Nathan Horton did a horrible trolling job. I used his insults as an excuse to stay home from school for a few days while he got in crap. His stupid yappy friend appologized to me but The Grinch just glared until the day he finally went home once the team lost durring playoffs.
2. Pourcupine: This chick I was once "Friends" with, pushed me around all the time. So when I stood up for myself she insulted me or threatened to beat me up. You see this isn't cool because nobody should ever take credit for beating up a 95lb weakling EVER. The stupidest comment she ever said was "You Have no boobs." Very good obserservation and I totally agree...I was flatter than the arctic tundra.
3. The Mall Stangers: This is a case of random trolling. But I won't complain because I so totally got $3 from the losers. Two guys started to throw quarters, a loonie and random change at my friend and I while they yelled out "Wenches!" We then proceeded to collect said change, thank them and walk off.
4. The Gens The 2001/2002 Oshawa general's Hockey team. Again I deserved to get trolled. They really had nothing to lose because no matter how often they dissed my friends and I, my friends just assumed "OMG HE LIKES ME!" I knew they disliked us but my stupidity lied in continuing to hang out with my "Friends" I was better off as a loner. We were told countless times to "Get lost" "Take a hike" "Beat it" "Go away" and "Baaaaaaaa" I never got the "Baaaaaaa" But I have a theory they were indicating we were like livestock. They made monkey calls and I'm just going to assume the monkey calls were directed at me because I did indeed look like a monkey. I was not very attractive in 9th grade, nor were my "Friends". The worst part of all this is, we still attended their games and cheered for them. I went in hopes of seeing someone KO Nathan Horton. No such Luck. But there's one thing I'm proud of, I provided laughter at my own expense! :D They can't deny it...they needed someone to Troll to keep their ego's up.
5. The Blob Durring my glorious days of being employed by Food basics I had many encounters with "The Blob". He was a mouthy, smelly, greasy fat guy who frequented Food Basics. I'm surprised that he made it across the parking lot without having a heart attack. Nobody liked him, and he constantly Trolled me. I had shopping carts run into me, cans tossed at me, perverted words said to me...he annoyed me at least twice a week. It came to a point where I could no longer take it (The smell of his BO) and I ran and hid in the back room until he left. I Took the opportunity to bale the cardboard.
6. Shirley Yes I'm using her real name. No she won't find this blog, she has been failing at locating me on Facebook for months now. This is a girl who trolls me and my friends ALL THE TIME! She doesn't troll with insults she Trolls with BS! She has some mental disability that a) makes her talk too much b) Belive her own lies and c) make you feel uncomfortable. I could dedicate an entire Blog entry to her but I wouldn't waste my time. lets put it this way, I have literally dove behind cars in attempts to avoid talking to her and I have seen an elderly Couple do the same thing once.
7. Mrs. Grumps alot: The one customer I had who I REALLY REALLY wanted to strangle. But Since I was the business owner (Bulk Food Store) I had to smile and wave at EVERY insult. This lady insulted EVERYTHING! Infact she came in just to point out which bins were empty, which corner had dirt in it and how bratty my kid was. She also kept comparing me to the previous owner. She dissed my clothes, my attitude, my store, who I talked to, etc. She non stop Trolled me! I even caught her in the act of Trolling. She came in and yelled at me because my Chopped Dates bin was empty, so I grabbed the brand new box of chopped dates I JUST got in and ofeered to bag some up for her to which she responded "I don't need any." >< TROLL!!!!
7 Tara I'm convinced she's in jail by now. In 10th grade I was Trolled by a classmate named Tara. She decided to pick on me. Not only did she pick on me she physically and verbally attacked me. She sent 5 big black guys after me one time. I was scared S%$#less! Every day I was terrified to go to school because she was there. If one of my friends bugged her she came after me. Then everything changed and she started to hit on me in math class. She tried to get me to go to her house and have an Orgy with a bunch of her guy friends...thankfully she got expelled and I never saw her again.
8. Mike: another Hockey Player, this time in my English class. He trolled me because I admitted to dating Nick Goslin. So for a few days he kept hounding me as his team mate (Gary, nice lad, has an IQ) kept telling him that it wasn't very nice. Eventually Mike felt bad and came and said sorry. But That didn't stop me from creeping the hell out of him in Grade 12 Biology. He Trolled me in grade 11 so I trolled him back in grade 12. And I won. You see when I noticed he was copying my answers on my test I purposely got the answers wrong then informed my teacher what he had been doing. He got in crap, I got to re do my test. He disliked me alot after that. But it's never cool to cheat unless it's in Math Class.
9. Tyler Carrot Top: This kid in my grade 8 class (Best recognozed by his vibrant orange hair) constantly trolled me. I was shoved in my locker by him, pinned against walls, had balls thrown at my face, insulted, slapped...he was twice my size and it was not a fair fight. Why did he troll me? Simple, he had issues, he was in foster care, and the best way for him to express his love was to hurt people. He informed me at the end of 8th grade that he was in love with me. I never saw him again and that's probably a good thing.
10. The 8th Graders When I was in Grade 5 I got trolled every day at the bus stop by the 8th graders. Grade 5 is when I began to use music (Headphones) as a defence against people. I blasted my walk man on the bus and just ignored everyone. It was off the bus that I had issues. I got ice balls thrown at me, I got face planted into snow banks, I had my candy stolen (Yes they stole my candy! Damn those 8th grade bullies!) they just made my life a living hell. So I started to walk to school, It was a 45 minute walk. Back then it was safe for kids my age to walk to school alone, plus I was living in Moncton NB which was and probably still is a very safe city. When I was in grade 8 I didn't bully the 5th graders I chilled out with them and I had a lovely time. My only regret getting trolled by 8th graders is I should have chased those bastards down and gotten my candy back.
Trolls tend to group up, but you'll get the odd reject troll. The really annoying troll the other trolls dislike and rejected. There are many Troll tribes out there. Most are young adolecent trolls still in school. You can find trolls in your Neighbourhood, local grocery store, the mall, your workplace, when you are on vacation, Customs officers tend to be trolls. Trolls are not just online, they are in your every day life. You can avoid the internet trolls but most times can't escape the reality trolls. Some trolls stop being trolls and others troll till they die. It's just the way of life. Life brings us trolls. And at one point in life or another we too have trolled. None are innocent.
1. The Grinch: His real name is Nathan Horton, he is in the NHL and I have been trolled by him. How? Well lets just say he went to my highschool and I totally had it coming (Because I started it by constantly calling him Grinch). But It was really funny and lame. I mean, honestly someone could have been more creative than calling me "Ugly Whore." Plus he was way off. Sure I'm hideous, but at the same time so is he (Thus the Grinch nickname) but how on earth could be assume I was a whore? I was sooo confused. I was still a Virgin in 10th grade so how the hell could I be a Whore? Don't Whore's have to have sex for money? So I must say Nathan Horton did a horrible trolling job. I used his insults as an excuse to stay home from school for a few days while he got in crap. His stupid yappy friend appologized to me but The Grinch just glared until the day he finally went home once the team lost durring playoffs.
2. Pourcupine: This chick I was once "Friends" with, pushed me around all the time. So when I stood up for myself she insulted me or threatened to beat me up. You see this isn't cool because nobody should ever take credit for beating up a 95lb weakling EVER. The stupidest comment she ever said was "You Have no boobs." Very good obserservation and I totally agree...I was flatter than the arctic tundra.
3. The Mall Stangers: This is a case of random trolling. But I won't complain because I so totally got $3 from the losers. Two guys started to throw quarters, a loonie and random change at my friend and I while they yelled out "Wenches!" We then proceeded to collect said change, thank them and walk off.
4. The Gens The 2001/2002 Oshawa general's Hockey team. Again I deserved to get trolled. They really had nothing to lose because no matter how often they dissed my friends and I, my friends just assumed "OMG HE LIKES ME!" I knew they disliked us but my stupidity lied in continuing to hang out with my "Friends" I was better off as a loner. We were told countless times to "Get lost" "Take a hike" "Beat it" "Go away" and "Baaaaaaaa" I never got the "Baaaaaaa" But I have a theory they were indicating we were like livestock. They made monkey calls and I'm just going to assume the monkey calls were directed at me because I did indeed look like a monkey. I was not very attractive in 9th grade, nor were my "Friends". The worst part of all this is, we still attended their games and cheered for them. I went in hopes of seeing someone KO Nathan Horton. No such Luck. But there's one thing I'm proud of, I provided laughter at my own expense! :D They can't deny it...they needed someone to Troll to keep their ego's up.
5. The Blob Durring my glorious days of being employed by Food basics I had many encounters with "The Blob". He was a mouthy, smelly, greasy fat guy who frequented Food Basics. I'm surprised that he made it across the parking lot without having a heart attack. Nobody liked him, and he constantly Trolled me. I had shopping carts run into me, cans tossed at me, perverted words said to me...he annoyed me at least twice a week. It came to a point where I could no longer take it (The smell of his BO) and I ran and hid in the back room until he left. I Took the opportunity to bale the cardboard.
6. Shirley Yes I'm using her real name. No she won't find this blog, she has been failing at locating me on Facebook for months now. This is a girl who trolls me and my friends ALL THE TIME! She doesn't troll with insults she Trolls with BS! She has some mental disability that a) makes her talk too much b) Belive her own lies and c) make you feel uncomfortable. I could dedicate an entire Blog entry to her but I wouldn't waste my time. lets put it this way, I have literally dove behind cars in attempts to avoid talking to her and I have seen an elderly Couple do the same thing once.
7. Mrs. Grumps alot: The one customer I had who I REALLY REALLY wanted to strangle. But Since I was the business owner (Bulk Food Store) I had to smile and wave at EVERY insult. This lady insulted EVERYTHING! Infact she came in just to point out which bins were empty, which corner had dirt in it and how bratty my kid was. She also kept comparing me to the previous owner. She dissed my clothes, my attitude, my store, who I talked to, etc. She non stop Trolled me! I even caught her in the act of Trolling. She came in and yelled at me because my Chopped Dates bin was empty, so I grabbed the brand new box of chopped dates I JUST got in and ofeered to bag some up for her to which she responded "I don't need any." >< TROLL!!!!
7 Tara I'm convinced she's in jail by now. In 10th grade I was Trolled by a classmate named Tara. She decided to pick on me. Not only did she pick on me she physically and verbally attacked me. She sent 5 big black guys after me one time. I was scared S%$#less! Every day I was terrified to go to school because she was there. If one of my friends bugged her she came after me. Then everything changed and she started to hit on me in math class. She tried to get me to go to her house and have an Orgy with a bunch of her guy friends...thankfully she got expelled and I never saw her again.
8. Mike: another Hockey Player, this time in my English class. He trolled me because I admitted to dating Nick Goslin. So for a few days he kept hounding me as his team mate (Gary, nice lad, has an IQ) kept telling him that it wasn't very nice. Eventually Mike felt bad and came and said sorry. But That didn't stop me from creeping the hell out of him in Grade 12 Biology. He Trolled me in grade 11 so I trolled him back in grade 12. And I won. You see when I noticed he was copying my answers on my test I purposely got the answers wrong then informed my teacher what he had been doing. He got in crap, I got to re do my test. He disliked me alot after that. But it's never cool to cheat unless it's in Math Class.
9. Tyler Carrot Top: This kid in my grade 8 class (Best recognozed by his vibrant orange hair) constantly trolled me. I was shoved in my locker by him, pinned against walls, had balls thrown at my face, insulted, slapped...he was twice my size and it was not a fair fight. Why did he troll me? Simple, he had issues, he was in foster care, and the best way for him to express his love was to hurt people. He informed me at the end of 8th grade that he was in love with me. I never saw him again and that's probably a good thing.
10. The 8th Graders When I was in Grade 5 I got trolled every day at the bus stop by the 8th graders. Grade 5 is when I began to use music (Headphones) as a defence against people. I blasted my walk man on the bus and just ignored everyone. It was off the bus that I had issues. I got ice balls thrown at me, I got face planted into snow banks, I had my candy stolen (Yes they stole my candy! Damn those 8th grade bullies!) they just made my life a living hell. So I started to walk to school, It was a 45 minute walk. Back then it was safe for kids my age to walk to school alone, plus I was living in Moncton NB which was and probably still is a very safe city. When I was in grade 8 I didn't bully the 5th graders I chilled out with them and I had a lovely time. My only regret getting trolled by 8th graders is I should have chased those bastards down and gotten my candy back.
Trolls tend to group up, but you'll get the odd reject troll. The really annoying troll the other trolls dislike and rejected. There are many Troll tribes out there. Most are young adolecent trolls still in school. You can find trolls in your Neighbourhood, local grocery store, the mall, your workplace, when you are on vacation, Customs officers tend to be trolls. Trolls are not just online, they are in your every day life. You can avoid the internet trolls but most times can't escape the reality trolls. Some trolls stop being trolls and others troll till they die. It's just the way of life. Life brings us trolls. And at one point in life or another we too have trolled. None are innocent.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Ways to save money on Luxurious things (A Blog for those Budgeters out there)
Recently I listened to a friend of mine Belly Ache over the fact that they couldn't afford luxuries that all their other friends could. "My friends have gym memberships, they go out to dinner once or twice a week, they get to go to the spa. They have the coolest clothes and get to go to date nights all the time with their significant others. I'm so jealous of them!" Mind you, I just shortened their rant in two simple sentances, I had to endure a whole hour of complaining. At the time all I did was encourage them that better times are coming, but what I should have done was offer cheap alternatives that are just as good or even better that all these luxuries people waste their money on. Are you living on a tight budget like me? WEll never fear I have awesome alternatives that will blow you away.
Skip the Gym: Why pay $45 a month to go to a place filled with people who annoy you or people who make you want to barf? Seriously, I've been to a gym on a trial membership and I didn't like it. You either have to deal with gym snobs, perverts or creepy people. I'm not one to work out on a daily basis because I'm lazy but I do know some fool proof awesome workouts.
Stay at home. Once you know how to do yoga moves and proper workout moves you don't need to pay for a trainer. You can workout on your living room floor where you Don't have to be creeped out by that fat sweaty guy who keeps hitting on you. And did you know that you can pick up REALLY cheap gym equipment at yard sales? It's true EVERYONE wants to get rid of their workout equipment because they used it once and just got lazy! You can turn a spare room into your very own personal gym and you can use it any time you wish!
If you have a pet dog, start going out for jogs with your dog. If you have children, start participating in physical activities with them. If you like walking on tredmills try going for a walk in the park. If you like excruciating workouts help a friend move. I pile wood throughout the year for my fire place, it's hard work but very rewarding! I had a free membership at a grocery store where I stocked shelves and got paid for it! That's right I did heavy lifting and didn't have to pay a cent for a gym membership. You too can find all these luxuries for FREE! Some even pay YOU!
Have a Spa at home! A day at the spa might end up costing you $100 or more. Sure it might be a day filled with relaxation but I guarantee you can find the same relaxation at home for much cheaper. It's simple. Look through your Avon catalogue or go to your local drugstore. Buy some bubble bath, foot massage stuff, nice smelling things, candles, face masks etc. Now Go home, light some candles in the bathroom, play some nice music and pamper yourself.
I've been to a spa once, it was quite nice BUT I figured that for much cheaper I can have the same experience at home. I got my husband to join me in the bathroom, and we had a nice spa experience! I soaked my feet in a foot soak while he played with matches...the foot soak relaxed me and my husbands opportunity to play with fire relaxed him. Then we went upstairs into our bedroom and gave each other a nice massage and yada yada yada great spa experience. It cost us a grand total of $5.
Cheap Date Night: When you go to the movies it always ends up costing over $50. It's like $12 per person to get into the movies and another $30 to buy popcorn, pop and nachos. They over charge for food big time. Want to know how to enjoy a movie night for $15?
Step 1: Find out which theater has a cheap night. There's usually a Tuesday $5 admission. Why go on a weekend when it's expensive when you can go in the middle of the week and save money?
Step 2: Go to a grocery store. Purchase a big bag of pop corn (or chips if you hate popcorn) a 2L bottle of pop, and some snacks. You might spend $5-10 on snacks depending on how hungry you are.
Step 3: Bring your big tote bag OR put the purchased food items in a shopping bag and throw a sweater on top of the food. (So that it looks like you just went shopping!
Step 4: Smuggle food into theater...it's easier than you think I do it all the time! They NEVER look because students tend to work at theaters and they don't give a rats ass what you smuggle in there.
Step 5: Enjoy your date night and be happy that you just saved up to $30
Have No money? Easy, have date night in your living room. Download a movie or watch one you already have...it's not nice to illegally download stuff SHAME ON YOU. Pop some pop corn, cuddle and enjoy. I have a date night practically everynight...sometimes we watch movies and sometimes we play XBox.
Dinner: Learn how to cook, set the table nicely, cook some food, enjoy! It's much cheaper than dinning out. Yes I know it's nice to have someone else cook your food, if that's the case order take out, bring it home, put the take out on fancy plates and organize it in a fancy way and enjoy a nice quiet evening. Theres also nothing like combining dinner and a movie! Skip the table, head strait for the living room, put a movie on and enjoy!
Clothing: It has come to my attention that Vintage and old styles are in style. There's no more new trends, they are simply old ones brought back. Like leggings for example, they were out of style for years and now every girl wears leggings! Bellbottoms are said to be back in style. Why go spend tonnes of money on new clothing when you can buy second hand clothes cheaper? (Under garments are not reccomended to be bought second hand EVER that's just nasty.) Go for a treasure hunt at your local Second Hand shop! Shirts and pants are clean when washed it isn't like you'll get cooties from wearing clothes that have been worn before. I've found brand new clothes on the racks of Valu Villiage.
I haven't shopped for new clothes in years now. I've saved lots of money. I get complimented on clothing I got for free! I have a wardrobe that may have cost me no more than $100. I happily go treasure hunting for cool clothes and it's quite fun. Stop spending top dollar on clothes when you really don't need to.
You too can save lots of cash. Just stop craving those luxuries like evfryone else, be proud of yourself for not giving in and be free of finacial stress. If you skip all the expensive methods you might just be able to pay off that dreaded credit card! OR You may even be able to afford a nice vacation!
Through the Storms: There is a light at the end of the storm (Part 6 of 6)
There is a light at the end of every storm, if there wasn't I wouldn't be here right now nor would many other people who suffer from mood disorders. Alot of people lose hope everytime they suffer in the darkness, even I lose hope and give up. While the outside world constantly tells us to just suck it up we get deeper and deeper into the darkness. There are people who do not understand what it's like to live in the mind battle feild. There are people out in the world who have no respect for those who suffer from mood disorders. But on the other end of the spectrum there are those who don't even have mood disorders but they claim they do just to get out of certain situations. There are lots of people who fake depression, anxiety, dementia etc just to get attention or get an easy way out of a situation they do not want to face.
I have come across people who throw pity parties as means of control over others. I've had people threaten to commit suicide every time I refused to talk to them. I've been dragged through emotional hell by some people claiming to have severe mood disorders but were really just after attention. I, on the other hand did the same thing to people...I pulled people through Hell too. I've made fake suicide threats, I've taken advantage of my mood disorders to get what I want, I've lost alot of friends because eventually they got fed up with dealing with me. And I know why because I've gotten fed up with people who've done exactly what I did. But I got sick of hurting people and misleading people. The lies became tiresome so I just stopped doing it.
I will never regain those friends I have lost because I took them through emotional turmoil. To be honest I don't even miss them any more. I've had some great memories, great friendships but only my true friends have stood beside me loyally through my changes. Some of my friends put their foot down in the right way, others just threw in the towel. My Husband knew when to call my bluffs, he knew how to deal with me. He along with some of my other friends had to stand strong against me, have much patience and not6 give me the opportuinity to blow things out of proportion. They all deserve awards.
The toll I paid was high, I can't go back and change anything. I can't go back and not say the horrible things I have said or done the horrible things I have done. What matters now is I press forward, not dwell on my past and just keep facing every storm that comes my way. For anyone going through emotional hell I can honestly tell you that if you let yourself find the light you will. If you admit you have a problem and you want it changed it will change. If you hate who you are and want to be better there's no such thing as making the changes too late. There's not a hole deep enough that you can't get out of. If you can't do it alone I guarantee God will help you out. If you are an atheist well then I'm certain there are kind people out there who love you very much who will help you out. Whether you take the steps alone or with others to fight the battle in your head, it doesn't matter. What matters is I'm not the only success story that's out there, there's many and you too can make your own.
There is a light at the end of every storm.
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Snowfall Warning? Ha!
Finally some Natural Disaster action heading my way! It's been a rather boring winter so far, we've had a few snowfalls and a few Colorado lows but not too many watches and warnings. However there was one snowfall that should have at least gotten a wee bit of a warning but the Weather Network under estimated it by a good 20cm. But this time the good ol weather network is tracking a big Texas storm that's coming strait for southern Ontario.
20-30cm of white stuff here may cancel school for the day but everyone will be back to their normal activities by the afternoon once the roads are cleared. We live in the boonies, where if the city plows fail every other household has a snowplow on the front of their truck. We just can't get snowed in in our little town. The residents would band together to plow the highway up to Havelock (The next town over) so that everyone could get a Timmies. All The local high quality coffee lovers would just simply walk over to our local Cafe and chill out there for a while.
Now 2--30cm of white stuff in Toronto, that's a different story. If they organize themselves properly and they don't get over 30cm then they may be fine. If the storm is worse than they predict then Toronto might have to call the troops to come in and dig them out like that time back in 1998. I remember questioning my parents in 1998, asking them why the city got shut down over a little bit of snow. I used to live in New Brunswick where 30cm is just another light dusting of snow. I've seen massive snowfalls that have closed school for up to a week. I have seen snowdrifts twice the height of me, I used to make tunnels through them. I've been through a storm so bad that it was near impossible to sled down the hill and walk back up. I've seen snow storms and the one that's coming for us tonight is NOT a snow storm it's just an excuse for Ontario Residents to complain. This is Canada! Canada Gets Snow! It's February, on the bright side, Wiarton Willie will not see his shadow so we can expect an early spring thaw and massive flooding woohoo!
Am I prepared for this little storm? Yes, I've got my board games out on the dinning room table just incase the power goes out (Which I doubt will happen) and I have my fire wood stacked in a nice pile. I've got plenty of snacks to chow down on so I'm good. The Dog will be happier than a Tornado in a trailer park when she sees all the new snow so all is good. So now that I have totally Jynxed this storm system we shall just have to see how much snow Mother Nature dumps on us. Bring it on! The picture below is my mom shovelling after a single snowfall in Moncton NB. This was what we called a REAL storm...3 feet of snow fell in 48 hours. This was the Atlantic storm of 1991 and it claimed many lives along the U.S and Canadian East Coast . So the little Texas storm couldn't possibly measure up to the big ol storm of 91.
20-30cm of white stuff here may cancel school for the day but everyone will be back to their normal activities by the afternoon once the roads are cleared. We live in the boonies, where if the city plows fail every other household has a snowplow on the front of their truck. We just can't get snowed in in our little town. The residents would band together to plow the highway up to Havelock (The next town over) so that everyone could get a Timmies. All The local high quality coffee lovers would just simply walk over to our local Cafe and chill out there for a while.
Now 2--30cm of white stuff in Toronto, that's a different story. If they organize themselves properly and they don't get over 30cm then they may be fine. If the storm is worse than they predict then Toronto might have to call the troops to come in and dig them out like that time back in 1998. I remember questioning my parents in 1998, asking them why the city got shut down over a little bit of snow. I used to live in New Brunswick where 30cm is just another light dusting of snow. I've seen massive snowfalls that have closed school for up to a week. I have seen snowdrifts twice the height of me, I used to make tunnels through them. I've been through a storm so bad that it was near impossible to sled down the hill and walk back up. I've seen snow storms and the one that's coming for us tonight is NOT a snow storm it's just an excuse for Ontario Residents to complain. This is Canada! Canada Gets Snow! It's February, on the bright side, Wiarton Willie will not see his shadow so we can expect an early spring thaw and massive flooding woohoo!
Am I prepared for this little storm? Yes, I've got my board games out on the dinning room table just incase the power goes out (Which I doubt will happen) and I have my fire wood stacked in a nice pile. I've got plenty of snacks to chow down on so I'm good. The Dog will be happier than a Tornado in a trailer park when she sees all the new snow so all is good. So now that I have totally Jynxed this storm system we shall just have to see how much snow Mother Nature dumps on us. Bring it on! The picture below is my mom shovelling after a single snowfall in Moncton NB. This was what we called a REAL storm...3 feet of snow fell in 48 hours. This was the Atlantic storm of 1991 and it claimed many lives along the U.S and Canadian East Coast . So the little Texas storm couldn't possibly measure up to the big ol storm of 91.
Friday, January 28, 2011
Through the storms: Divine Intervention (part 5 of 6)
I do not belive that we are here by pure accident. Telling me the universe is here by accident is like me telling you that a mansion can build itself perfectly without human assistance. If You don;t belive that a House can be built without a designer what are the odds that the Earth and Universe are here without a designer. I belive there is a God, I belive he helped me through all of my storms and I am going to share some of my Divine intervention Testimonies.
God Sends the Kitty cats: There would be times when I'd be walking home or somewhere in a very bad mood. Mainly I'd be arguing with my boyfriend over something small but obviously a huge deal to me. I had a tendancy to over react and act like a child, it was quite sad but thats just what I did. As soon as I sat down on a curb to bawl my eyes out, for some reason a random cat would prance up to me, rub against me and purr. Me having a soft spot for cats would sniffle, pet the cat and smile. My Boyfriend (who's now my husband) would sit next to me and say "See, God loves you, he keeps sending you cats to cheer you up." and it worked every time.
One particular event I was VERY lucky to have a cat intervene. I was royally pissed at Nick for likely some small reason and I blew it out of proportion. While he and his family were enjoying the Harbour day fireworks I walked into his house, vandalized his bedroom and tried to OD on Buckleys (Yes Buckleys...because it's so cool to OD on a cough medicine you can't even OD on) I went home, thought things over and grabbed a bottle of Tylenol. I was set on commiting suicide in my boyfriends bedroom. So I grabbed my bottle of extra strength tylenol and walked out the door where a really cute kitten was waiting for me right on my door step. I stopped, sat down and held the kitten. I never saw that cat again after but it stopped me from going over to Nick's house. I called Nick as soon as he got home, I appologized for trashing his room and he forgave me. Any Normal person would call the cops on me and get me some help...but he didn't feel a need to because I did get help, I got divine help. Too many instances occured where I was stopped by a cat. Heck sometimes I was stopped by skunks. But I truly belive that God sent those cats. Why? Who knows me better than God?
My very own Guardian Angel I was having a VERY tough summer in 2003. I was 16 and everyone knows how emotional 16 year olds are. I was dating a guy who didn't know how to deal with me and I was constantly waging wars with friends. I was on the line of just ending my life...half the summer I was just plain Emo. One morning I got cheered up because someone left me a note in my mailbox and signed it as "Guardian Angel". Now even if it was a prank and I was stalked by some girl or whether it was a guy actually keeping an eye on me those notes still caught my interest and cheered me up. One of them told me to cheer up, look out my window and up to the sky and say that I am a good person. So Every night I stared at the sky and Told myself I was awesome. The whole summer I tried to solve the mystery but I never did. I assumed it was my favorite OHL hockey player stalking me but I highly doubt it. I doubt it was a hockey player. It may have even been some old guy for all I know but who ever it was it sounded like they really cared and that's all I needed. Today I feel that God placed this random person in my life just to change my direction. I did change direction, I got better grades at school and just like the letter said there was someone waiting for me at school who'd be a better boyfriend for me than the one I had in the summer of 2003. So I dumpped my boyfriend and a few months later I aquired a new stalker...His name is Nick, he never gave up and he rocks my world.
The answered prayer: I felt sorry for this kid when I was in grade 10. There was this boy I saw every day and he would always walk home for lunch. He was always alone...like me. So, because I'm so caring and concerned I prayed for this boy. I really wanted to see him happy in life. I wanted to see him with a wonderful girlfriend, someone who'd be the perfect companion for him. So I was being nice and I asked God to help him. God can do anything! Who would have known that I was the perfect girl for this boy. I didn't know, I had no interest in him because I was still stalking my favorite Oshawa General whom I had zero chance with...I'm quite glad I never dated a hockey player, they really aren't my type. So God answered my prayer, because God has a great sense of humor. Who set eyes on me in grade 11? Well The boy I prayed for of course! Now I'm married to him and I can boast that God gave Nick the "perfect" girl. I did mention perfect in my prayer...Obviously I'm perfect!
Jesus told me not to do it: I had pills, I had wine, I was set on making a big scene and drinking my wine with those pills. So I sat in my bathtub with my wine and pills in hand and I was about to take them. That's when Jesus intervened (Yes I know it sounds crazy) No he didn't talk to me nor did I see him but something in my mind made me feel that Jesus was saying no...so I put the bottle down and tossed the pills. I don;t care what ANYONE says, he changed my mind okay? My conscience isn't capable of helping me...that much I know.
Jesus Take the Wheel: I was having an appocalypse moment, The house was going to foreclose, Bill collectors were calling non stop, I had a big fight with Nick that morning, my kid was acting up big time, my customers were rude and insulting and my world was falling apart. So I fell apart too. I just shut right down and gave up. As I sat on the floor defeated my ears tuned into the song on the Radio. Carrie Underwood's song "Jesus Take the Wheel" was playing so I listened. I heard this song hundreds of times but this time it totally changed me. I got on my knees, cried out and I Let Jesus take the wheel. Obviously I suck at driving. He drives better. So When Nick was done work expecting to fight some more he was totally confused when I hugged him and told him it would be okay. And It's okay. A huge burden was lifted, financial stress got taken away. Everytime we face hardships all I can do is laugh and calmly try and find solutions. There's always solutions.
Can he take it all away? If it wasn't for God I'd probably be either dead or in a mental institution. Can God take it all away? I belive he can. I have people laugh at me or pressure me to stop following God but I think they're just foolish. Why on Earth would anyone want me to stop doing something that CLEARLY makes me feel better and makes me a nicer person? Could I do stuff without God? No, I'd be an asshole looking for drama like I used to be those few years I rejected God. I'm not perfect, I never will be but I have something to hang on to when my ship sinks in the storm. If Jesus is in my boat I ain't going down. So Yes, God can take it all away. I'd be so miserable right now without Him. <3
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Through the Storms: Journal Entries (Part 4 of 6)
I found some of my highschool journals (Yes I kept them) and found that every other page was pretty much negative. One day I had a good day the next I was having an aweful day. I complained alot and vented alot...for the most part my entries were very silly. But I got together some parts of the journal and I have decided to blog them. This is who I was back in the day.
November 27/2004 "...the looks he gave me, I know he was staring and so was his girlfriend. Who knows what he said about me! I was such a LOSER! I realize now, everything I am is all my fault, I made myself a loser, It was my fault bullies targeted me-I'm a LOSER! All those damn nights I cried and blamed everyone else but all I have to blame is myself...I've let myself down big time."
Dec 5 2004-"No matter how many of us there are, we all eat from the same loaf, showing that we are all parts of the body of Christ (1Cor 10:17) ...and they allowed my friend whos not a Christian nor believes in God to partake in the Lord supper? We ate the bread and partook of the cup with a person of the world? This means she's symbolically apart of me!"
(How Naive I was as a Christian, I knew nothing and I found this comment very silly. For so many years I was a blind Christian and it wasn't until 2009 that actually figured things out. I am on track now and see everything in a huge new perspective. Yes I am still a Christian and I can testify that most of my problems were solved all thanks to God and I will Testify that till the day I die)
"I really want to ve a Vet tech, I can't see myself doing anything else. I hate people, I want to work with animals. I'm just not a people person...I will never be a people person."
"Im begining to feel alot of love for Nick. What if he's right? what if we really are meant to be? He might be my true love! Most guys keep asking for sex (Nick does sometimes), I don't want to have sex unless it's with my soulmate. I'm a one man kinda girl." (wooo if only I knew...LOL)
Jan 7 2005 "We did pig dissection in biology so I attacked one of the dumb ass Oshawa Generals with the intestines. Oh man his face went so pale and his team mates went into hysterics. Serves the dick right for copying off me every damn day. Yeah I know I'm messed up...but it was so damn funny."
March 1st 2005 "Nobody is listening to ME! I wish people would stop walking all over me!"
March 16 2005 "Nick broke up with me at lunch. When I called him around 7:30 he pretended as if nothing even happened. What a Dick Head I f****** hate him! He can rot in hell for all I care! I'd rather be alone the rest of my life in a F****** strait Jacket! Thats where I belong! Nick says He's sick of my attitude? Sick of abuse? Whatever! Anyways I punched a hole in the wall, kicked my hampster cage, broke a few candles in my room Smacked my head off my keyboard and told my mom to go F*** herself...I don't really remember what else I did but I know I screamed like a Banshee or a demon possessed little girl. I wonder if my eyes were red and glowing. After I hit my head off the bathroom counter I felt better...only the pain can stop my wrath. Nothing else works."
"Why am I such an idiot? Why can't I be responsible? I'm sick of hurting myself! I want this to end! I'm so tired and it hurts!"
April 8th 2005 "Today my fave singer was found dead in 1994. Kurt Cobain of Nirvana. He took his own life but his music still lives to make me feel better. Sometimes I dream of killing myself while listening to Nirvana, but I'm a coward. So Instead I sit here listening to Nirvana thinking of suicide. Today marks the birthday of my fave hockey player...I had a crush on him and was all obsessed like some girl who talks non stop about their fave boy band. The crush is gone but maybe one day we could be friends....I think he's pretty cool. I wonder if he likes Nirvana? After all a very talented singer was found dead on his birthday."
April 27 "I hate my mom so much! She's NEVER possitive! Seriously...why do I want to put on F****** makeup and make my damn hair perfect? Who gives a rats ass??? The world should have bloody ended years ago the way she talks. She actually told me that Christianity was making me ill...What? Holy crap what kind of a Christian is she? One of a kind...one of a kind."
May 16 "Durring my spare class I talked to strangers online abour farts hehe."
June 3rd 2005 "Nick Proposed to me at prom!!!...Omg I walkied into the bathroom and 5 girls were discussing how Nick and I won't last and that we'll be broken up by next week. Stupid bitches. One girl said I don't deserve him? Oh right so after all those whores make fun of him for years they have rights to say I don't deserve him? You snooze you lose Bitches! Stupid hippocrites! I didn't see any of them being nice to him. Whatever...this is the last year I have to ever see their stupid faces!" (Until *drum roll* Facebook! However they all changed just like everyone else. Highschool is such a drag.)
June 6th "I had a terrible morning. I freaked out, threw my hair brush at Nick, all because my hair looked like crap and My ring broke. So he walked out on me and I got more pissed and I spazzed out on my bathroom floor. My all time fave place to spaz. I can't control myself...when I get into these moods I seem to have issues calming myself down. It sucks...I wish I was in more control. I'm sick of hurting people. I'm sick of hurting myself."
Septmeber 8th 2005 "Well, screw college plans. For a few years anyway. Got the news today that I'm pregnant. Nick was really happy. HA! I knew it! He Knocked me up on purpose! That bastard! Oh man my mom is going to freak out big time. You know what? I'm pretty excited...I'm going to be a mommy!"
October 8th "I felt depressed today so I went over to Nicks house. For once instead of telling me to suck it up he Hugged me and comforted me. It was nice. Then we watched Hockey and I couldn't stop laughing at how utterly Ridiculous Alfredson looked. Bahahahaha CLOWN!"
October 17th "My mom wants me to move to Moncton with my sister and look after the baby there. My sister agrees and says she'll adopt my baby and I can stay there and look after the baby. So I talked to my sister for a bit about this idea..."
november 4th "Commencement today. I graduate from Henry High. I have so many memories! Crushing on an Oshawa General, slipping on a puddle, watching my friends slip on the hill, getting suspended over something so stupid...so many things yet the biggest was meeting Nick. I love him so much! And we get to graduate together. Of course we fought for a bit before commencement but we made up in five minutes. Nick loves me, he has to. Nobody else could put up with all my crap. But he did. So tonight I graduate...and I'm pregnant. I passed out while waiting in line to sit down in the gym. My introduction wasn't "Jess is attending RidgeTown College" It was "Professional Mercahndise mover at Zellers." Oh yeah...I Rock. Screw You Henry Street Highschool I'm Outta here...and I'll miss every moment of it."
November 18th "So I decied to throw a huge fit and not go to work tonight. I went to the Bar and sang some Karaoke then Nick walked in and I ran outside, took my shoes off and walked half way home barefoot in the snow. I didn't feel the cold...I just walked. I was pissed off. I walked all the way home fighting with Nick, went inside, quit my job and chopped all my pretty hair off. MY LIFE BLOWS!!!"
December 31 2005 "I walked out of my stupid house, I'm sick of my mom. So I went to Nick's house for New Years Eve. I need to move out of my house...my mom is so controlling. I'm getting annoyed. To top it off Nick and I are both sick so we slept through the new years count down. 2006...is going to be a year of big changes."
February 22nd 2006 "OMG I don't wanna see my blood sugar results I don't wanna give up sugar >< I love sugar. OMG!!! The OB just told me I need MORE SUGAR! I'm low blood sugar! That's why I always faint. WOOT! SUGAR!!!!! I'm so happy right now!"
May 13th 2006 "I'm the proud mommy of a little girl. Nick knows so much more about parenting than I do. I thought I'd break Aurora if I held her. I figured it all out though. She's so Beautiful."
June 20th 2006 "I Need to get the hell out of my parent's house ugh! They won't let Nick see his daughter half the time! My mom wouldn't let me take her for a walk. SHES MY KID! I need to get the hell out of here. I'm not an incompetent idiot!"
and that's where my Journals pretty much end. I had more issues after of course. Nick and I got married July 11th 2007. We bought our own house November 23rd 2007. Things were up and down for a bit until I started to not give a rats butt about finances. I'm happy with what I have. We Figured out energy drinks made me into Miss Hulk so I no longer drink them. So many changes. I was messed up in Highschool. I was confused, crazy, depressed...I was all over the place. But Today I have so much more together...and my pleads to get better came true.
November 27/2004 "...the looks he gave me, I know he was staring and so was his girlfriend. Who knows what he said about me! I was such a LOSER! I realize now, everything I am is all my fault, I made myself a loser, It was my fault bullies targeted me-I'm a LOSER! All those damn nights I cried and blamed everyone else but all I have to blame is myself...I've let myself down big time."
Dec 5 2004-"No matter how many of us there are, we all eat from the same loaf, showing that we are all parts of the body of Christ (1Cor 10:17) ...and they allowed my friend whos not a Christian nor believes in God to partake in the Lord supper? We ate the bread and partook of the cup with a person of the world? This means she's symbolically apart of me!"
(How Naive I was as a Christian, I knew nothing and I found this comment very silly. For so many years I was a blind Christian and it wasn't until 2009 that actually figured things out. I am on track now and see everything in a huge new perspective. Yes I am still a Christian and I can testify that most of my problems were solved all thanks to God and I will Testify that till the day I die)
"I really want to ve a Vet tech, I can't see myself doing anything else. I hate people, I want to work with animals. I'm just not a people person...I will never be a people person."
"Im begining to feel alot of love for Nick. What if he's right? what if we really are meant to be? He might be my true love! Most guys keep asking for sex (Nick does sometimes), I don't want to have sex unless it's with my soulmate. I'm a one man kinda girl." (wooo if only I knew...LOL)
Jan 7 2005 "We did pig dissection in biology so I attacked one of the dumb ass Oshawa Generals with the intestines. Oh man his face went so pale and his team mates went into hysterics. Serves the dick right for copying off me every damn day. Yeah I know I'm messed up...but it was so damn funny."
March 1st 2005 "Nobody is listening to ME! I wish people would stop walking all over me!"
March 16 2005 "Nick broke up with me at lunch. When I called him around 7:30 he pretended as if nothing even happened. What a Dick Head I f****** hate him! He can rot in hell for all I care! I'd rather be alone the rest of my life in a F****** strait Jacket! Thats where I belong! Nick says He's sick of my attitude? Sick of abuse? Whatever! Anyways I punched a hole in the wall, kicked my hampster cage, broke a few candles in my room Smacked my head off my keyboard and told my mom to go F*** herself...I don't really remember what else I did but I know I screamed like a Banshee or a demon possessed little girl. I wonder if my eyes were red and glowing. After I hit my head off the bathroom counter I felt better...only the pain can stop my wrath. Nothing else works."
"Why am I such an idiot? Why can't I be responsible? I'm sick of hurting myself! I want this to end! I'm so tired and it hurts!"
April 8th 2005 "Today my fave singer was found dead in 1994. Kurt Cobain of Nirvana. He took his own life but his music still lives to make me feel better. Sometimes I dream of killing myself while listening to Nirvana, but I'm a coward. So Instead I sit here listening to Nirvana thinking of suicide. Today marks the birthday of my fave hockey player...I had a crush on him and was all obsessed like some girl who talks non stop about their fave boy band. The crush is gone but maybe one day we could be friends....I think he's pretty cool. I wonder if he likes Nirvana? After all a very talented singer was found dead on his birthday."
April 27 "I hate my mom so much! She's NEVER possitive! Seriously...why do I want to put on F****** makeup and make my damn hair perfect? Who gives a rats ass??? The world should have bloody ended years ago the way she talks. She actually told me that Christianity was making me ill...What? Holy crap what kind of a Christian is she? One of a kind...one of a kind."
May 16 "Durring my spare class I talked to strangers online abour farts hehe."
June 3rd 2005 "Nick Proposed to me at prom!!!...Omg I walkied into the bathroom and 5 girls were discussing how Nick and I won't last and that we'll be broken up by next week. Stupid bitches. One girl said I don't deserve him? Oh right so after all those whores make fun of him for years they have rights to say I don't deserve him? You snooze you lose Bitches! Stupid hippocrites! I didn't see any of them being nice to him. Whatever...this is the last year I have to ever see their stupid faces!" (Until *drum roll* Facebook! However they all changed just like everyone else. Highschool is such a drag.)
June 6th "I had a terrible morning. I freaked out, threw my hair brush at Nick, all because my hair looked like crap and My ring broke. So he walked out on me and I got more pissed and I spazzed out on my bathroom floor. My all time fave place to spaz. I can't control myself...when I get into these moods I seem to have issues calming myself down. It sucks...I wish I was in more control. I'm sick of hurting people. I'm sick of hurting myself."
Septmeber 8th 2005 "Well, screw college plans. For a few years anyway. Got the news today that I'm pregnant. Nick was really happy. HA! I knew it! He Knocked me up on purpose! That bastard! Oh man my mom is going to freak out big time. You know what? I'm pretty excited...I'm going to be a mommy!"
October 8th "I felt depressed today so I went over to Nicks house. For once instead of telling me to suck it up he Hugged me and comforted me. It was nice. Then we watched Hockey and I couldn't stop laughing at how utterly Ridiculous Alfredson looked. Bahahahaha CLOWN!"
October 17th "My mom wants me to move to Moncton with my sister and look after the baby there. My sister agrees and says she'll adopt my baby and I can stay there and look after the baby. So I talked to my sister for a bit about this idea..."
november 4th "Commencement today. I graduate from Henry High. I have so many memories! Crushing on an Oshawa General, slipping on a puddle, watching my friends slip on the hill, getting suspended over something so stupid...so many things yet the biggest was meeting Nick. I love him so much! And we get to graduate together. Of course we fought for a bit before commencement but we made up in five minutes. Nick loves me, he has to. Nobody else could put up with all my crap. But he did. So tonight I graduate...and I'm pregnant. I passed out while waiting in line to sit down in the gym. My introduction wasn't "Jess is attending RidgeTown College" It was "Professional Mercahndise mover at Zellers." Oh yeah...I Rock. Screw You Henry Street Highschool I'm Outta here...and I'll miss every moment of it."
November 18th "So I decied to throw a huge fit and not go to work tonight. I went to the Bar and sang some Karaoke then Nick walked in and I ran outside, took my shoes off and walked half way home barefoot in the snow. I didn't feel the cold...I just walked. I was pissed off. I walked all the way home fighting with Nick, went inside, quit my job and chopped all my pretty hair off. MY LIFE BLOWS!!!"
December 31 2005 "I walked out of my stupid house, I'm sick of my mom. So I went to Nick's house for New Years Eve. I need to move out of my house...my mom is so controlling. I'm getting annoyed. To top it off Nick and I are both sick so we slept through the new years count down. 2006...is going to be a year of big changes."
February 22nd 2006 "OMG I don't wanna see my blood sugar results I don't wanna give up sugar >< I love sugar. OMG!!! The OB just told me I need MORE SUGAR! I'm low blood sugar! That's why I always faint. WOOT! SUGAR!!!!! I'm so happy right now!"
May 13th 2006 "I'm the proud mommy of a little girl. Nick knows so much more about parenting than I do. I thought I'd break Aurora if I held her. I figured it all out though. She's so Beautiful."
June 20th 2006 "I Need to get the hell out of my parent's house ugh! They won't let Nick see his daughter half the time! My mom wouldn't let me take her for a walk. SHES MY KID! I need to get the hell out of here. I'm not an incompetent idiot!"
and that's where my Journals pretty much end. I had more issues after of course. Nick and I got married July 11th 2007. We bought our own house November 23rd 2007. Things were up and down for a bit until I started to not give a rats butt about finances. I'm happy with what I have. We Figured out energy drinks made me into Miss Hulk so I no longer drink them. So many changes. I was messed up in Highschool. I was confused, crazy, depressed...I was all over the place. But Today I have so much more together...and my pleads to get better came true.
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
5.8 Quake reported at Goslin Residence.
(Please read Blog post titled "Richter Scale of Life's poop" before reading this post)
5.8 Quake causes Damages
At approximately 10:35 EST January 24th, 2011 a quake measuring 5.8 was confirmed. The Quake was thought to be a 4.0 at first but upon further investigation it was discovered to be a 5.8. Over the weekend the temperatures were well below zero which resulted in bathroom pipes freezing. The Goslin's returned home to discover the toilet line was frozen. It was not until Monday at 10:35 that they discovered that the pipes were not only frozen but had burst below the toilet causing a slight emergency situation.
"We got the bathtub pipes unfrozen from the putting heat in a small space in the basement where our bathroom pipes are. Once we started to pour hot water into the toilet's holding tank the ice thawed in the toilet as well but would not stop flowing. We suspect there is a breakage in the pipe under the toilet. Our biggest issue is getting to that pipe, we have no choice but to dig the pipe out." States Jess.
The Goslins will have to remove the toilet, dig a hole in the floor and inspect the pipes. If they are correct in their theory they will have to replace the pipe, fix the floor, put the toilet back and buy new tiles. Damage is estimated at roughly $50 assuming all goes as planned. Repairs will be made this evening and the Goslins are hoping to have the bathroom back in order by tomorrow.
"It would be nice to have a shower, or shave, or be able to use the toilet as soon as possible." Says the Goslin's Boarder, Jason.
"Um...um the toilet is broken! Seven (the dog) is mad!" States four year old resident, Aurora Goslin.
"Yes, well, the dog is clearly upset as we had to put the lid on the upstairs toilet to keep the dog from drinking dirty water. The toilet is her favorite drinking bowl. I have faith my bathroom will be fixed tonight, I'm not too worried about it. I'm just looking forward to getting my bathroom back in order." Says Jess.
It is too soon to speculate on just how much the repairs will cost and if they can be done. Updates will be posted as soon as we know more about the situation.
5.8 Quake causes Damages
At approximately 10:35 EST January 24th, 2011 a quake measuring 5.8 was confirmed. The Quake was thought to be a 4.0 at first but upon further investigation it was discovered to be a 5.8. Over the weekend the temperatures were well below zero which resulted in bathroom pipes freezing. The Goslin's returned home to discover the toilet line was frozen. It was not until Monday at 10:35 that they discovered that the pipes were not only frozen but had burst below the toilet causing a slight emergency situation.
"We got the bathtub pipes unfrozen from the putting heat in a small space in the basement where our bathroom pipes are. Once we started to pour hot water into the toilet's holding tank the ice thawed in the toilet as well but would not stop flowing. We suspect there is a breakage in the pipe under the toilet. Our biggest issue is getting to that pipe, we have no choice but to dig the pipe out." States Jess.
The Goslins will have to remove the toilet, dig a hole in the floor and inspect the pipes. If they are correct in their theory they will have to replace the pipe, fix the floor, put the toilet back and buy new tiles. Damage is estimated at roughly $50 assuming all goes as planned. Repairs will be made this evening and the Goslins are hoping to have the bathroom back in order by tomorrow.
"It would be nice to have a shower, or shave, or be able to use the toilet as soon as possible." Says the Goslin's Boarder, Jason.
"Um...um the toilet is broken! Seven (the dog) is mad!" States four year old resident, Aurora Goslin.
"Yes, well, the dog is clearly upset as we had to put the lid on the upstairs toilet to keep the dog from drinking dirty water. The toilet is her favorite drinking bowl. I have faith my bathroom will be fixed tonight, I'm not too worried about it. I'm just looking forward to getting my bathroom back in order." Says Jess.
It is too soon to speculate on just how much the repairs will cost and if they can be done. Updates will be posted as soon as we know more about the situation.
Friday, January 21, 2011
The Bottom of the barrel
I am admitting for once in my life that we need help. As much as I disagree with Welfare, it looks like we're applying for it. Nick's $1000 a month doesn't cut it. For the third time this month his hours at work were slashed. He works at Tim Horton's (even though he's over qualified for a crap job like that...but I have a strong feeling he's there for the free coffee) and because we are in the middle of nowhere they are not busy until March. What happenes March? Roll Up The Rim to Win of course! Where all canadians flock to Timmies just to buy coffee so they can win more free coffee! After March the cottagers start coming up and that little Tim Horton's is understaffed. Nick can kiss any hopes of getting a long weekend off in the summer. But for now...we're BROKE!
So here we are looking at options. And Welfare looks pretty nice right about now. Even if we only get $200 a month that will help. I'm unemployed until April (Again because my workplace won't be busy until the vacationers arrive) and we're running out of options. The Hydro bill is $500 for a single month thanks to our base board heaters. We still haven't paid our Gas bill from 2009 either and the chain saw broke five times so we can't cut up the wood to heat our house. We're so broke we will likely have to head out for the first time in our lives to the food bank ><
So my adventure starts next week when we go apply...if they say no at least we have an option to pay the Hydro through charity. Right now I feel like I'm a charity. Any Birthday money I get next week is going to bills. I look at the calandar and count down the days...knowing damn well everytime I say "It's going to be better...it's going to be better" it will just be the same struggle on a different day. We've been scraping that barrel for 3 years now. I'm sure it will continue.
Things of course looked much brighter when a friend dropped off some food today. You know, I might be scrapping my barrel bottom but I am so grateful for my awesome friends and family. I'm so happy for the stuff I have because I have alot more than most people. Treasure isn't what you have on this Earth anyway. Yes I'm at the bottom of my barrel and guess what? I'm Still Happy!!!!
So here we are looking at options. And Welfare looks pretty nice right about now. Even if we only get $200 a month that will help. I'm unemployed until April (Again because my workplace won't be busy until the vacationers arrive) and we're running out of options. The Hydro bill is $500 for a single month thanks to our base board heaters. We still haven't paid our Gas bill from 2009 either and the chain saw broke five times so we can't cut up the wood to heat our house. We're so broke we will likely have to head out for the first time in our lives to the food bank ><
So my adventure starts next week when we go apply...if they say no at least we have an option to pay the Hydro through charity. Right now I feel like I'm a charity. Any Birthday money I get next week is going to bills. I look at the calandar and count down the days...knowing damn well everytime I say "It's going to be better...it's going to be better" it will just be the same struggle on a different day. We've been scraping that barrel for 3 years now. I'm sure it will continue.
Things of course looked much brighter when a friend dropped off some food today. You know, I might be scrapping my barrel bottom but I am so grateful for my awesome friends and family. I'm so happy for the stuff I have because I have alot more than most people. Treasure isn't what you have on this Earth anyway. Yes I'm at the bottom of my barrel and guess what? I'm Still Happy!!!!
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